Name

I thought today about my trip home, I only saw a few friends and I spent most of the time with my family. Which was great.

I've realized though that my life is in Utah now. My friends there are probably going to be the friends that I have for the rest of my life. Besides Brittany, who I got to see on this trip...I don't have things in common with my friends here. Our priorities are different. They are still great amazing people but our lives are completely different.

It's hard for people here to know me. They don't understand why I won't drink with them...or other things. It's just a different lifestyle. I value different things, and that's ok.

I go back to Salt Lake tomorrow and I start school on Monday. I'm excited. I'm excited for this semester. I'm excited for the next 6 months. I'm excited for life!

Here Is Gone

Music is my life line.

I'm in a crazy state of life right now where I don't feel much of anything. Not happiness, or sadness, or anger. Today I know I'm sad...but i don't feel it. If that makes sense. Even my memories are feelingless. Is there something wrong with me? Probably.

But when I turn on my ipod and Mae, Thrice, Blink, Blue October, Rise Against, Jack's Mannequin...and countless others flood my head I feel alive. It's good. I think every song I know reminds me of someone or a memory.

Music. Defines me. When the whole world is gone, I have my music. My sanity.

So how about this, leave me a comment...and I'll tell you a song - or album that reminds me of you =]

Funhouse

Happy New Year!

It's now 2011. I don't think I usually make a big deal about the new year, but I feel like 2010 was just a lot of questions (??). What I'm saying is there wasn't a lot of clarity. I met Dianna who is my best friend. That was good. I also met Mark and Krissy and Chelsea and Reed, they are great people. Those people make me want to be a better person. I went back to school, which is great!! 2010 wasn't bad.

BUT 2011 will be better. Right?

Last night I was good. Last night I walked... no ran away from Satan, it was good. I am better than that! I am worth more than what you expect of me. I don't follow any rules especially not yours! Don't tell me you care. You don't.

That's what I learned in 2010. That I'm better than the mediocracy that this world sets as the expectation. I am divine and I deserve such things.

Desentary Gary

I'm not sure if i spelled that right, but that song has been stuck in my head for about a month now.

Being home is strange, everything i remembered. Like:
1. argueing with Anthony
2. playing board games with Joey
3. hanging out with Brittany (i got to meet Brinley!!)
4. Going to Church and feeling awkward....
5. seeing elder maughan and wanting to punch him :)
6. missing everyone back in SLC
7. Dodging guys!!

I have to say i like my life back in utah more than my life here. Besides my family.

Back Home

I'm home in orlando until the 6th of january,

It's been fun today is Ethans birthday!! We hung out with Marshae and Caleb and Joey, we went to the church and saw elder Maughan, i guess he was sick, i don't know...he told marshae that he could here my voice. It's wierd.

Tonight we are having Ethan's Birthday Dinner!! He's 12 can you believe that?!?

It's pretty exciting, he gets the priesthood this sunday. I am so excited for him!!

I'm really excited for this up coming semester!! more later

One year Six Months

I've used that one before too. It's been a month since I last wrote. I've been in school for a month. Thats Crazy!!!


Today Mariah and I are having lunch with poopie! I'm really excited!!!

More after?

Silence

I got a blessing today for the start of the semester.

I was told that all the questions i have will be answered this semester. This is sticking with me.

I'm so excited for school to start and i can't wait to get back into the rush of it all. And to get caught up in the student life. I'm excited for homework and projects.

I'm trying to figure what questions i have and further i'm scared of the questions i have being answered, i'm scared of not being able to handle those answers or being crushed by them.

more tmorrow after school.