The Suffering

Last night was really bad for me, I was trying to find a song for Cassi and Cecil to dance to at their wedding and the song "best day" from Taylor Swift came on. I thought it was a love song but it was a song about her dad. I decided to listen to the song and the tears started flowing, I haven't seen my dad in two years. I stared thinking about how my dad is missing out on our lives and how we're missing out on his. Then the thought came to me that my dad will not be able to go to my wedding, it didn't help the crying. I don't want someone else at my wedding, i want my dad, I know that at this point in time that can't happen.

I woke up this morning swollen eyes, and feeling a bit discouraged.