Thoughts I've had over the past few days.
I come off to people as someone so different from who I really am. I'm popular and I have a bunch of friends and don't get me wrong I love them, but I do so much better one on one.
All of my friends would tell you I don't like to be touchy that I like my space. When people try and push those boundaries I coil up and push the person away, but somewhere in myself or in them I see something I might want to try.
Sometimes I push that feeling away and other times I give in to them. Maybe that's what happened the other night with Andrew. Nothing turned into something. Something that I don't do. Something that I don't let happen.
But
When I do, it's like I become a different person than I normally am. I open up to the person. Not just physically but emotionally like I could tell them anything...everything about myself. And all the sudden
BAM
they are important. They are my confidant. And that's a bad thing...Right? Because I shouldn't trust someone because they feel nice to be physical with.
Physical is tied to emotional even if you don't want it to be. Its natural that way and the way its meant to be ( As god intended ). So I say- don't fake your feelings by being physical with someone who you don't want to care about in a deep emotional way. Thats why in proper order you build the emotional before the physical- you bake the cake before you ice it. I think less feelings get hurt or confused that way. Just my perspective.
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