Follow Through

Once again I have let life get the best of me and neglected my wonderful blog. Worth it? Absolutely! I just hope I can remember all the has happened.

Most importantly, The Costley's have been mind blowingly  great, in the beginning of July Amy said she wanted me to to move out. I didn't argue wit her and so that night me Bry and Andrew went and got all my stuff from her house. So I was homeless. The Costley's have let me stay with them since then. I try and keep clean and do as many chores as possible. Just because I want to show some appreciation. They are really great people and they have such kind hearts.

The whole falling out with Amy has been kinda hard for me seeing as for the most part of my life I idolized her and I always felt like I could talk her about everything and now we don't talk at all. It just wasn't the right environment for me and it was starting to bring me down.

We went to bear lake as a ward and I got to hang out with Eli a lot. He had been around all summer long and I just never really paid any attention to him. He was the one who bought all our tickets to Avengers, sat by me as sushi and Brave apparently, and made an effort to see how I was at every social event all summer. I just always ignored him kind of but at bear lake we went tubing and talked and laughed and he kind of became my "flavor of the week". But after we came back from bear lake the crush didn't go away. We ended up talking like all the time and I learn just how funny he is and how much we have in common which is A LOT. A few weeks ago I ended up telling him I had a thing for him and a few days ago he said he liked me too, but  that he isn't wanting a relationship. I've been trying to ignore him and stay away from him but we have all the same friends. And I really do enjoy being around him. I'm just really really afraid of being hurt. And last night at Andrew's party he started asking Bryanna about me and how I was before moving here, and asking her if I was ok and all this stuff. I wish he felt comfortable asking me those things but I guess a 3rd person opinion is always nice. I'm just being really careful about how much I open up to him, not that he's asking anyway. But he's asking my friends.  He's seriously a really great guy and I feel like I can tlak to him for hours, and I guess I do over text and when he comes down for the weekend.

We are supposed to be going to Jennifer's wedding on the 29th, but his convert is going through the temple in Arizona. Which is way more important than the wedding anyway.

Well's it's really late and I need sleep so I'll write more tomorrow.