I learned this week that a few of my guy friends read this thing. It's great since most of the time I'm on here talking about guys. And since guys are reading this. Lets get some advice? YES!
So we all know how retarded I am now since everything with Ryan. I will think I'm into someone for a little then realize how terrible they are and get over it. Well in my last entry I talked about Eli. I'm really freaking myself out because he isn't like that, and I'm not realizing how terrible he is in fact the more I learn about him the more I like. He's in Logan and I'm here and he's not emotionally available and I can't blame him I was for a year. And I always said when guys wanted to date me that if someone just continued to be my friend and showed they really cared a about me then it would probably happen. But all of them pushed it and I walked away, I'm trying really really hard not to do that with Eli. I know I do sometimes though. I really don't want to though. And then sometimes it's the other extreme and I don't talk to him at all, and that's what will probably happen all this week. Why can't I just be normal?? Or not care at all like before?
On a bright note Halloween is looking to turn our really great!
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