The Suffering

Last night was really bad for me, I was trying to find a song for Cassi and Cecil to dance to at their wedding and the song "best day" from Taylor Swift came on. I thought it was a love song but it was a song about her dad. I decided to listen to the song and the tears started flowing, I haven't seen my dad in two years. I stared thinking about how my dad is missing out on our lives and how we're missing out on his. Then the thought came to me that my dad will not be able to go to my wedding, it didn't help the crying. I don't want someone else at my wedding, i want my dad, I know that at this point in time that can't happen.

I woke up this morning swollen eyes, and feeling a bit discouraged.

Pain

For those of you who know me really well know I'm mortified of needles, and today I had a root canal. Needless to say it wasn't a really fun experience. The dentist was fantastic though! He used a microscope! I think thats really cool.

Only 3 more days until I leave for salt lake! Words can't describe how happy I am for this new adventure!

Black Ballon

So, I'm Moving to Utah on the 26th and I'm really excited about it.

I have a feeling that it will be a good thing, I'll be living with Cassi and right by the rest of the girls all but Rachel. So we should have a lot of fun.

Cassi and Jordan are picking me up from the Airport which is really nice, they are good friends.

Moving back to Orlando in May was a really wierd decision I made, I'm still not exactly sure why... but I believe I'm beginning to understand it more.

Cassi is dating a guy named Cecil, they are thinking about getting married, I'm really happy for them!!

I wrote Trevor an Email, he'll be home from his Mission in April, I also wanted to ask him some advice.

I really think moving back to Utah will be a great thing for me.

Empty Apartment

I say empty apartment because of the two moves i'll be experiencing this month the first is over. We are now at the new condo, it's so much better than that apartment!! I think this is a good move for my family.

In a week I'll be moving back to Utah, I'm really excited! I'll be living with Cassi, she's already at the apartment. It's very empty.

SO I'm giving a talk at church today, on homes it's a little ironic.

I downloaded a bunch of Thrice music, I'm really enjoying it.