I thought today about my trip home, I only saw a few friends and I spent most of the time with my family. Which was great.
I've realized though that my life is in Utah now. My friends there are probably going to be the friends that I have for the rest of my life. Besides Brittany, who I got to see on this trip...I don't have things in common with my friends here. Our priorities are different. They are still great amazing people but our lives are completely different.
It's hard for people here to know me. They don't understand why I won't drink with them...or other things. It's just a different lifestyle. I value different things, and that's ok.
I go back to Salt Lake tomorrow and I start school on Monday. I'm excited. I'm excited for this semester. I'm excited for the next 6 months. I'm excited for life!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Here Is Gone
Music is my life line.
I'm in a crazy state of life right now where I don't feel much of anything. Not happiness, or sadness, or anger. Today I know I'm sad...but i don't feel it. If that makes sense. Even my memories are feelingless. Is there something wrong with me? Probably.
But when I turn on my ipod and Mae, Thrice, Blink, Blue October, Rise Against, Jack's Mannequin...and countless others flood my head I feel alive. It's good. I think every song I know reminds me of someone or a memory.
Music. Defines me. When the whole world is gone, I have my music. My sanity.
So how about this, leave me a comment...and I'll tell you a song - or album that reminds me of you =]
I'm in a crazy state of life right now where I don't feel much of anything. Not happiness, or sadness, or anger. Today I know I'm sad...but i don't feel it. If that makes sense. Even my memories are feelingless. Is there something wrong with me? Probably.
But when I turn on my ipod and Mae, Thrice, Blink, Blue October, Rise Against, Jack's Mannequin...and countless others flood my head I feel alive. It's good. I think every song I know reminds me of someone or a memory.
Music. Defines me. When the whole world is gone, I have my music. My sanity.
So how about this, leave me a comment...and I'll tell you a song - or album that reminds me of you =]
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Funhouse
Happy New Year!
It's now 2011. I don't think I usually make a big deal about the new year, but I feel like 2010 was just a lot of questions (??). What I'm saying is there wasn't a lot of clarity. I met Dianna who is my best friend. That was good. I also met Mark and Krissy and Chelsea and Reed, they are great people. Those people make me want to be a better person. I went back to school, which is great!! 2010 wasn't bad.
BUT 2011 will be better. Right?
Last night I was good. Last night I walked... no ran away from Satan, it was good. I am better than that! I am worth more than what you expect of me. I don't follow any rules especially not yours! Don't tell me you care. You don't.
That's what I learned in 2010. That I'm better than the mediocracy that this world sets as the expectation. I am divine and I deserve such things.
It's now 2011. I don't think I usually make a big deal about the new year, but I feel like 2010 was just a lot of questions (??). What I'm saying is there wasn't a lot of clarity. I met Dianna who is my best friend. That was good. I also met Mark and Krissy and Chelsea and Reed, they are great people. Those people make me want to be a better person. I went back to school, which is great!! 2010 wasn't bad.
BUT 2011 will be better. Right?
Last night I was good. Last night I walked... no ran away from Satan, it was good. I am better than that! I am worth more than what you expect of me. I don't follow any rules especially not yours! Don't tell me you care. You don't.
That's what I learned in 2010. That I'm better than the mediocracy that this world sets as the expectation. I am divine and I deserve such things.
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