Light Years Away

I'm pretty aure that I've used this title before, but it's so fitting.

I've been looking back at my life or atleast over the past year... I feel like in every aspect I am a different person. A year ago I was so preoccupied with Anthony and I didn't see how bad he was for me, don't get me wrong he is still one of my best friends but I know now that he was not the one for me.

Aside from that, i wasn't sure what I wanted to do with my life exactly, I thought that being home could be a good solution but being home for the time that I was had to be the darkest time in my life as far as my decisions...I made some wrong decisions while I was home and I thought that I was smarter and stronger than I was. But I'm past that now and I'm a stronger person than the person I was back then.

Also I have met some of the most amazing people in the past year, I can't even explain how much gratitude I have for my new friends like Dianna and Zach! I usually don't like new people but they are both really good people and I don't see them having a malicious feeling in their hearts.

I have also lost a best friend in the past year, I was played for a fool and It still really hurts but I've learned a lot from the situation, and I know who real friends are. And i'm grateful for the experience that I've had.

So in about 2 weeks I'll be 21 and I feel really old haha. But in my 21 years I've lived so much and I'm looking forward to living for as long as I'm given.

This past year I've also come to understand my spiritual gifts I am so happy for that! it has blessed my life and my families lives and I'm so grateful....

I just felt like baring my soul today. Take it how you will.

Down With The Sickness

Thats right, I'm currently infected witht hte flu. I hate it more than words can even discribe. Other than that Salt lake has been great lately. Mariah will be here in a week so I'm excited about that. I don't even remember the last thing i wrote on here.

I'm living with Jessie and Bryanna now, Cassi moved back to Idaho. Enough about that.

Me and Dianna are super close right now, she's in the best friends catagory for sure!!

Me and Kaylee and Dianna made a trip to Idaho that was a lot of fun. I got to go to Idaho and Oregon. I was so axcited!!

I think I'm getting a job a KSL, doing promotions...how awesome would that be?

Volcano

I'm not sure what i'm doing up at 3 in the morning, but here I am.

I'm so tired butmy brain won't stop. I've had a sick feeling the past 2 days. Currently enjoying some Damien Rice.

Time for complete honesty? Sure

I don't know if i've mentioned this but I've been spending a lot of time studying the scriptures, and praying for some guidence. I've received some answers and it's time for some changes in my life, changes that are needed to make my goals become reality. Even though it's going to be tough it's going to be wonderful...

I'm hoping to make another Provo trip soon! I really need it! Plus I love it down there.

Good things are going to start happening.

Don't Cry Out

So, Since i last wrote i've spent some time down in Provo. It was a bunch of fun! Hopefully i'll be there next weekend too.

When i got back from Provo i heaeded up to Bountiful for a family dinner, and it was so great! The next day was Trevors Homecoming so we went to his ward and over to their house and that was a lot of fun too.

On the down side, I got a $300 ticket...so today i'm getting a bus pass.

Whatcha Say?

I know thats an awful title for a blog but it makes sense to me. One of the few things that does.

I haven't written in about a month. A lot has hapened for sure! Cassi and Cecil got engaged for real about a week ago. Riley moved up here from Arizona to be with Rachel. I'm so happy for both of the couples. I'm really happy that our group gets along with both Cecil and Riley.

Rachel and Dianna are moving to Provo, I'm pretty sad about that but it gives me an excuse to be down there more often. Also Maria Baron is down there.

I'm trying to convince her to come visit me this weekend. So then I can show her all kinds of places here in SLC. Cassi is staying here in Utah for the summer. Jessie is moving in our place for about a month. So that should be interesting, I hope that nothing goes wrong seeing as Jessie has been really cross with us lately and stepping on toes for sure.

I'm currently at Rachel and Dianna's we are watching Pride and Prejudice....I remember 2 years ago seeing this movie for the first time and Maria Baron trying to liken the movie to our ward and Rob...I still believe that about the ward...not about Rob so much, we never fought. Funny how things go.

Back Home

I've just realized that for this blog i use a lot of Yellowcard song titles.

Well. I might move back home i know crazy right i guess it just depends where i can find a job. I kind of miss home though.

Britt had her baby! I'm so excited for her and Bronson!!

Things basically fell apart with friends and by friends I mean the Dewskies, i'm not going to get into all the gory details but we aren't really friends anymore. It's all good

Corina and Jared are coming this week I'm really excited!!

Lucky?

So, I don't know what I last wrote about. I don't know much of anything anymore. I wake up everyday hoping to figure things out.

Me and Jon are singing Lucky from Colbie Calliat and Jason Mraz at Cassi's wedding. It's pretty cool, I'm not sure about my singing voice but everyone else seems to have faith in it. We'll just need to practice before hand.

I've gotten really close to Jon and his roomates over the past few weeks. Not exactly sure how i feel about that either I mean I really like all of them so thats good. I should probably figure out what exactly i feel for Jon.

Mariah is pretty sick still, she's going to the hospital today and she'll probably have to have surgery. I wish they would just figure it all out!!!

I think I'm just going to give up on Monster, I mean think about it...I'm just a stupid girl. And I basically need to get over it.