Silence

I got a blessing today for the start of the semester.

I was told that all the questions i have will be answered this semester. This is sticking with me.

I'm so excited for school to start and i can't wait to get back into the rush of it all. And to get caught up in the student life. I'm excited for homework and projects.

I'm trying to figure what questions i have and further i'm scared of the questions i have being answered, i'm scared of not being able to handle those answers or being crushed by them.

more tmorrow after school.

Tapper Jean Girl

So I'm pretty much sure no one reads this. Which is totally fine with me.

I have a job interview on Monday!! At a funeral home. maybe I'll get the job?? I sure hope so! I think it would be cool to work at a funeral home.

School starts in about 3 weeks! I can't wait!! I've missed school for about a year. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things!! Haha I can't wait to have homework and papers believe it or not.

Suspension

It's Wed for another twenty min or so.

He asked me how long i'll be in Utah for. Why? I'm scared because i asked him why. And tomorrow will be Thursday which is generally letter day.

"Say Anything But Say What You Mean...'Cause I'm Caught In Suspension"

This is ridiculous though right? I guess whats scary is that if i don't get a letter i'll feel like crap because he will have left me hanging with this question that has thrown me for the past two weeks.

I've been spending a lot of time helping Corina and Dianna with their wedding ideas and helping them. It's good for me. I like helping.

Girl At The Rock Show

Over the past 2 months that i haven't written I've been to a Thrice show. That was absouletly amazing!! Me and Jordan had a blast and I can't wait to do it again.

Over the past weekend we drove down to Rachel and Riley's wedding! It was so great! on the way there i got to lay in the street and watch the stars and i got to see some shooting stars wich was wonderful. On the way back from the wedding we got to see the grand canyon! We watched it rain over the Canyon. It was majestic to say the very least.

Light Years Away

I'm pretty aure that I've used this title before, but it's so fitting.

I've been looking back at my life or atleast over the past year... I feel like in every aspect I am a different person. A year ago I was so preoccupied with Anthony and I didn't see how bad he was for me, don't get me wrong he is still one of my best friends but I know now that he was not the one for me.

Aside from that, i wasn't sure what I wanted to do with my life exactly, I thought that being home could be a good solution but being home for the time that I was had to be the darkest time in my life as far as my decisions...I made some wrong decisions while I was home and I thought that I was smarter and stronger than I was. But I'm past that now and I'm a stronger person than the person I was back then.

Also I have met some of the most amazing people in the past year, I can't even explain how much gratitude I have for my new friends like Dianna and Zach! I usually don't like new people but they are both really good people and I don't see them having a malicious feeling in their hearts.

I have also lost a best friend in the past year, I was played for a fool and It still really hurts but I've learned a lot from the situation, and I know who real friends are. And i'm grateful for the experience that I've had.

So in about 2 weeks I'll be 21 and I feel really old haha. But in my 21 years I've lived so much and I'm looking forward to living for as long as I'm given.

This past year I've also come to understand my spiritual gifts I am so happy for that! it has blessed my life and my families lives and I'm so grateful....

I just felt like baring my soul today. Take it how you will.

Down With The Sickness

Thats right, I'm currently infected witht hte flu. I hate it more than words can even discribe. Other than that Salt lake has been great lately. Mariah will be here in a week so I'm excited about that. I don't even remember the last thing i wrote on here.

I'm living with Jessie and Bryanna now, Cassi moved back to Idaho. Enough about that.

Me and Dianna are super close right now, she's in the best friends catagory for sure!!

Me and Kaylee and Dianna made a trip to Idaho that was a lot of fun. I got to go to Idaho and Oregon. I was so axcited!!

I think I'm getting a job a KSL, doing promotions...how awesome would that be?

Volcano

I'm not sure what i'm doing up at 3 in the morning, but here I am.

I'm so tired butmy brain won't stop. I've had a sick feeling the past 2 days. Currently enjoying some Damien Rice.

Time for complete honesty? Sure

I don't know if i've mentioned this but I've been spending a lot of time studying the scriptures, and praying for some guidence. I've received some answers and it's time for some changes in my life, changes that are needed to make my goals become reality. Even though it's going to be tough it's going to be wonderful...

I'm hoping to make another Provo trip soon! I really need it! Plus I love it down there.

Good things are going to start happening.