Dear You,
I am a shell of the person I once was. I try to be everything people need. I dress differently, think differently . I am so concerned about what people think of me. I tell everyone not to even bring you up to me. To pretend that you never existed. It doesn't work because you exist in my mind. Telling me everything that is wrong with me.
You exist when other boys are around and they say I'm beautiful, they will take it back just like you did.
Because to me you are still beautiful. You still make me smile, even in just the memories. You are the standard. I miss you so much it hurts. Even when it goes away for a long time it creeps back in my mind.
I did a lot of wrong things, but I still swear that I never lied. And I want you to be happy, I need me to be happy too. I missed the Big A$$ Show this year and the Blink 182 concert because I was on a date with another boy. Who happens to be fantastic by the way. I wish I could give him my heart. But I never got it back.
If you ever read this you'll probably laugh at it. Show your friends, even family. And that's fine. I just need to get my thoughts out to someone.
Sincerely, Me
P.s. Don't Settle
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